The Things We Cannot Carry

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There are questions that do not want answers.

Not because they are impossible.

Because we are not finished asking them.

What is consciousness?

Why is there something rather than nothing?

What happens when we die?

Why does beauty move us?

Why does one person become cruel and another become kind?

Why does anything matter?

We are very good at trying to close these questions.

Give us an empty space and we will put something in it.

Sometimes we put a fact there.

Sometimes a theory.

Sometimes a god.

Sometimes a story.

Sometimes Fancy Dust.

Fancy Dust has never answered a philosophical question.

It has, however, appeared inside a sealed container.

We remain concerned.

There is something valuable about leaving a little space open.

An unanswered question can become a doorway.

You can return to it years later with new eyes.

You can discover that the question was larger than you thought.

Or stranger.

Or perhaps you were asking the wrong question entirely.

Mystery does not always mean ignorance.

Sometimes it means the thing is larger than the instrument you’re using to examine it.

You can understand how a star forms and still stand beneath one in wonder.

You can understand the chemistry of a flower and still think it is beautiful.

You can understand grief and still not know why losing one particular person hurts the way it does.

Knowledge does not always dissolve mystery.

Sometimes it gives mystery better edges.

This matters because certainty can become a cage.

If you decide too quickly that you know what the universe is doing, you may stop noticing what it is actually doing.

If you decide you know exactly what death means, you may stop listening to the people who are still alive.

If you decide you know why someone suffered, you may accidentally make their suffering smaller.

Some things deserve the dignity of:

I don’t know.

Not forever.

Just for now.

There is courage in carrying a question without forcing it to become an answer.

Perhaps the Mage does not need to know everything.

Perhaps the Mage needs to know which questions are worth carrying.

Some questions become lanterns.

Some become anchors.

Some become doors.

And some—

we simply set down for a while.

The universe will still be here when we come back.

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